PSYCHEDELIC RAINBOWS

HEEHEE I’M BACKKKKKK <3 <3 <3

everything thus far

it’s been a rly looooong time since I’ve updated this space! haha! okay anw heading into the last stretch of our trip >.< means bro and I are gna be alone agn ): without our great travelling buddies ): but then agn I get t meet sheryl!! so tt’s good too! (: so for now it’s goodbye norway and helloooo London! (: okay pics and everything else proper when I get homeeee! wheee! lovelove <3

to a very special person

dearest mummy,

thanks for being there through thick and thin with me. I know we don’t always agree on the same things but I know ultimately you only have my best interests at heart.

thank you for all the sacrifices you had to make to raise korkor and I.

thank you for raising us the way you did, because some where along the way, you must have done many things right to allow us to become who we are today.

thank you for instilling a strong sense of morality in us and the importance of having a clear conscience. this has indeed allowed me to learn to make rightful decisions in my life thus far.

I’m not gna wish you a happy mother’s day. because as cliche as it sounds, it is supposed to be mother’s day everyday (: this day is simply another excuse for us to go out and make dad pay for dinner haha! anw, I just wna say (but I hope you know this alr) that we aka kor, me & sumo love you super uber much! and that we appreciate all that you have done (: LOVE <3

another little thing about me

i dont pry. i dont like to be subjected to prying. i dont like being made to pry.

so what’s the difference between the second and third right? well, i dont like having to know too much about a person behind the person’s back. i get uncomfortable if large amounts of info about people i dont know gets poured on me, because that means in future, i’ll inevitably judge him/her. 

some would say, ohh elaine, dont be so frigging self-righteous.

here’s the thing. i’ll set the record straight from the start. i bitch. ohh yes, i bitch a fair deal but i’ll only bitch about someone if that someone has done something to me. really. having been on the receiving end of bitching by people i didnt even know i pissed of (because i wasnt really socialising with them tbw), i wont subject another person to that. and here’s another thing. there are some things i DONT wna know. some parts of one’s personal life are actually meant for one to keep private (i hope you know what i’m talking about) because i really dont give a damn and i dont want to give a damn about that aspect of another’s personal life. so get it, there are somethings i dont need and want to know. 

the latter. i dont know if it’s just me, but i really find it immensely annoying when people drop hints about themselves around you, expecting you to pick up on them bloody hints and ask them the appropriate questions. like i said to sheryl the other day about such cases, it’s like being able to play out an entire conversation in my head without you saying anything after. like in response to the “hint”, i’m supposed to ask this/say that, in which you’ll say this, then i’ll reply that… you get the gist. so if i already know wth’s gna happen and how things are gna play out, then why have the convo with you in the first place? 

okay this just reminded me of another thing. interruption. i dont know where some people learnt their manners from. but i’ve been brought in an environment where you wait your turn to speak. and if you really have to say something, say excuse me or apologise after. but then again, for some this is not the case it seems. and i dont know which is worse, to interrupt and change the subject completely (well, that’s just plain rude) or to interrupt and direct all attention to yourself (well, that’s just damn narcissistic) so really, is it so freaking difficult to just shut up and listen to someone else without monopolizing the conversation?? i mean there’s a reason why it’s called DIalogue, and if you’re so self-obsessed then entertain yourself with a MONOlogue, after all i am nothing but a breathing piece of meat in front of you, so that you can use me as a comparism against your fabulously interesting life… not.

okay this piece wasnt supposed to be an angsty one but it’s turning out to be. but i guess ive been bottling this a tad too long, and i guess ive reached my limit for now. till another idiot decides to test it again (:

the garden

in order to have a decent garden, the home owner has to do several things. mind you, he’s not seeking to build a perfect garden because perfection in this area isnt really necessary. but he does need to maintain a decent garden, after all, one’s front lawn is indeed a reflection of himself. 

so yes, back to the garden. he’s has to plan the layout of his garden, choose the type of plants to coincide with his garden theme, plant them plants, lay out the carpet grass yada yada. then after that comes the maintenance. he’s got to water the plants, add fertilizer and most importantly, remove the weeds. removing the weeds are perhaps the most important because if left alone, no amount of water nor fertilizer would allow the plant to grow well. and it’s sad because some weeds are actually rather pretty, like the mimosa. pretty pink round flower, but growing amidst the carpet grass, means it has to be yanked out because what good is there to have a carpet grass with mimosa plants all around it? 

it is indeed a tiresome process to maintain a decent garden. it’s one thing to water the plants and add fertilizer, it’s another thing to do weeding. and it is especially tiring to weed, all that sweat and dirt, just so that his plants would grow well. he doesnt really like to do it, but he knows he has to, because if he doesnt, his garden would end up a mess and all that previous planning and effort used would all go down the drain. 

so to him, a weed is still a weed. an unwanted plant with pretty flowers is also still a weed. and sadly, sooner or later, they all have to go.